Foos is feeling better, life is humming, our children are dreamboats. I have recently reconnected with my maternal family, many miles, half-siblings, and borders away. It has given me a lot to think about, and on the whole, made me happier/gloomier than usual. But my life, my day to day, remains the same. There is a disconnect between the world in my head, and the world which I touch with my hands. We have a wall of windows in the dining room, and every plant in that room, thrives, grows, multiplies. I want to be that wall.